Headcanon / State of the Character

Specifically for the benefit of canonmates, with regards to how I play him, and thoughts on how certain canon events have affected him... and how that might inform his CR. There's a bit of OOC/IRL mun knowledge scattered through toward the end, too, and discussion of a few triggering subjects, so. If you'd care not to read that, I've marked where it starts. You won't lose any of the IC stuff by leaving off there.

( Let the rambling begin. )